If I could just overpower my inner demons

I would be so free

To not care how many friends,

How many events

To love my self and know my worth

Irrespective of my interactions with the outside

For my inner strength to overpower my outer insecurities

To be free

I ache in my search

the pain is unbearable

Yet I can’t reach

always out of reach


I know what I need

yet it seems impossible to break my nature

constructed as it may be.

Arduous and tormenting activity

What truly matters?

What truly begets happiness and assurance?

How can one alter the inner monologue?

One which has been so meticulously created

and so relentlessly reinforced…

I want to escape

but I don’t know how.

© Michelle De Aizpurua and MissyCartoons 2014